I'm in an all-around funk. My attention span is the length of Michael Jackson's dick, I'm uninspired, and generally blah. BUT, I did find my Haunted (Poe) CD. That makes me very perky indeed. I could almost stone myself for not catching her at The Engine Room in Houston in 2002. Bad me!
I'm tempted to re-read an old favorite to get my juices flowing. I have the urge to read, but picking up something new and unconquered makes me quease. I have a slight urge to re-read The Alchemist for a bit of new age philosophical find-your-dreams dogma shot. Or, I could pick up The Hours and be reminded of the fact that I'm not cut out for children yet. Or, I could re-read some old Edgar Allen Poe to go along with my Poe CD. Or even her brother's book, House of Leaves, for a supremely delicious creep and another nice accompaniment to the CD.
Last night one of my students was lamenting the fact that she doesn't know exactly what she wants to do with her life. "Welcome to the club," was my response. Yes, I know I want the MA and maybe the Phd and I want to teach, but doesn't everyone still have those moments when they think there's MORE? They're missing something or refraining from doing something they've always thought they'd do or longed to do. Yeah, I'm young, blah blah. Plenty of time. I'm also the least patient person I know.
You thought you could keep me from lovin'
You thought could feed on my soul
But while you were busy destroyin' my life
What was half of me has become whole.
A lil Poe fo' ya. The girl, not EA.
She's so deliciously spacey and creepy. Another in-the-runner for the lesbian wife position. She's too good to be a girlfriend.
A few more Poe niblets:
And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head
I go wild 'cause it doesn't make sense
For me to cry out in my own defense
Wild 'cause I would do anything
To tear you off your precious fence
So this is what it's like living in limbo
First I'm high then I'm so low
Been there done that
Get the hang of it
I screw you I had a whole lot of fun with it
I've had enough now so you better take a bow
It's gonna be a new experience if you wanna play with me
Daisy chains and maryjanes
Happy ending fairy tales
Cannot fool me now
*From my personal favorite screw you song: I'm Not a Virgin Anymore
Reading: What did I just say?
In my head: All that is vile and vindictive.
P.S. The dark lady, of profile fame, is back. Much better.