So here I sit, unemployed, a house and a kiddo to support, and I am surprisingly...fine. In the first hours after "the talk" with my boss, I was a mess. Many tears were shed. More a case of wounded pride than anything. A serious case of the what-the-hell-am-I-going-to-do's.
I am a worker. I am not a workaholic necessarily, but I tend to define myself by the work I do. Always have. It runs in the family. So to be jobless FOR THE FIRST TIME (against my will) since the age of 17 (I turn 32 in November) is a bit of a shock to the system. In fact, most of those years -- even in high school -- I had more than one job; sometimes as many as three. That being said, I'm still teaching five online classes. Thank goodness!
So what do I do with myself?
- I will treat job hunting like a full-time job.
- I'll tap into every available network I have (in-person, online, and I'm not too proud for nepotism)
- I will try to head off the blues at the pass -- because I know ups and downs come with this territory
- I will do everything there is that needs to be done. You do what you have to do.
I expected to feel bad about this change. I expected to feel sad and mad and a little tortured. But the truth of the matter -- the sweet, wonderful, surprising truth -- is that in the past 48 hours I have felt more love, appreciation, and support than I ever would've anticipated. I am overwhelmingly grateful!
Thank you to all of you who reached out to me on Facebook, Twitter, and via e-mail. I've even had fellow bloggers and social media extraordinaires sending me job postings (quite a few of them). I've received virtual hugs, and sweet notes, and snarky jabs at those who let me go (thanks, guys!). And I feel ok. For the first time in a long time, I feel lighter, happier, more like myself. I know this is the beginning of something better for me.
I'm grateful for...
- The opportunity I had that will inevitably improve my resume
- The friends and family and loved ones who have come to my side to make sure I'm doing ok
- The offers of help
- The prayers
- The love
In the midst of what I expected to be some very dark days, I feel so much relief, confidence, and hope. Thank you, thank you, thank you. All of you.