After reading 10 of my own damn books in January, this was my reward to myself. I bought a digital copy to read along with Heather and Care, and I was SO STOKED to talk about it and explore it together.
Ultimately, though, part of my goal in #ReadMyOwnDamnBooks is to cycle through a chunk of my TBR books and NOT force myself to read things I don't want to. This particular DNF experience brought my own evolution in book buying into sharp focus. I don't want to burn money, y'all. I dropped $13 on this book I felt was a really good bet, and I knew within 48 hours that I had essentially burned that money.
With some yet unspoken but very real career changes on my wishlist for the near future, I cannot burn money. CANNOT.
It's high time I make friends with my local library with which I've had an iffy relationship. It's the only one for miles and miles and MILES around. There are no library systems in this neck of the woods unless you go to Dallas (45-50 minutes away). It is a small library with an extremely limited collection of books, though they have branched out in the last few years with more Overdrive selections. It's $20 per year to join the library if you live outside the city limits, and I do.
For a long time I forsook library checker-outing not only because I don't love my local library (it's an easy scapegoat), but because I was stuck in a cycle of buying books and letting them sit on my shelves, sometimes for years, which is how I got to this personal challenge in the first place. It didn't feel so iffy, so wasteful, to spend money on books when I knew they'd grace my house for years and someday possibly be a thing I'd enjoy (or not). But to be actively whittling my pile down, and ultimately working toward a quicker turnaround of reading the books I own, hating a book within two days of buying it made the light bulb go off in a very, very tangible way.
Bottom line: Even though I've allotted the opportunity to buy books for myself, I think I'll stick to books I know I'll enjoy (books I've read as galleys that I want keeper copies of, etc.) and opt for the library on new, spur of the moment reads. Many of you already do this, so I'm sure this post seems silly, but it's a BIG change of mind for me who has been a library dropout for so many years. Will I have to TRY to use my library? Yes. I may even have to think far enough ahead to use interlibrary loan at the university where I work, too, but I think it'll be worth it.
Are you a natural-born library user? Do you live in a place where it takes effort? Was there a reckoning that pushed you to the library?