Monday, October 24, 2016

Falling Off the Wagon

Running fell to the wayside in August. The Texas heat got me. Leaving the house in 90-degree temperatures before sunrise every day was harder than I expected, so I gave myself a break.

Now, a couple of months later, I've been comforting myself with ice cream far more often than a good run. I suppose there's no shame in falling off the wagon. It happens. I haven't lost the progress I'd made before. I've been running once a week, but I haven't been working toward anything specific, and I haven't been running for as long as I was before.

Days like today, and most days lately, I feel desperate to get back on track. First and foremost I miss it. I'm also really stressed out. Between the classes I'm teaching, the sticker shop, and some issues Greyson has had at school, I need to exhaust myself. Between election talk and nurturing the people around me, I need to exhaust myself.

In truth, I've sort of let self-care fall to the wayside in general. Not just running but makeup, face masks, skincare, organizing. Things I like, even though they probably don't sound all that likable to some people.

This post is me 1) venting and 2) being accountable. I had started working back through C25K at a faster pace than the first time I did it, and I really liked that strategy. I had shaved several minutes off my comfortable pace, and I'd like to get back to it. I'd like more "me" time.





17 comments:

  1. Hope you get back on track with whatever works for you! I totally need to figure something out for my own stress. lol

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    1. With the weather beginning to cool off here, it should be easier to get on track. I loved running in March and April when I started because I could essentially go any time of the day to fit it in. In the Texas summers that's not a thing, so just having flexibility should help!

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  2. Start small. Tell yourself you will run for 30 minutes. If most of that winds up being walking, that's OK. We all fall off the wagon sometimes. It's how we get back up that matters and the fact that we try.

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    1. Totally. And having a plan really helps me stay on track...that's why I like working back through C25K. It's easily chewable pieces.

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  3. You were wise to take a break during that awful heat! I remember trying to run when we lived in Fort Worth (and Rod trying to play tennis there, as well) and the heat was unbearable. I always thought I could wait until dusk when it would cool off, but it never did! Glad you're getting back on track. It's a great way to reduce stress and think through problems. I hope everything settles down with Greyson. Parenting is such a stressful, yet rewarding, job!

    Yes, it's time for this election to be over.

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    1. Isn't it terrible? Ugh. It's not worth getting heat stroke. I think I like the quiet thinking moments part of it the best. I have a hard time getting my brain to shut up. lol Stressful yet rewarding! Exactly!

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  4. I can only imagine the thought of getting up to run in the Texas heat! I've found over the past 2 years that switching to triathlon in the hot summer months is much more enjoyable for me...subbing some of my runs with bike rides and/or swims is a lot more enticing than grinding out all those runs in the heat/humidity.

    Kudos to you for making yourself accountable for getting back on the horse and I hope you can work in some good runs in the next few weeks! Fall is the best for running!

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    1. It's misssserable. I would love to incorporate the swimming, and I really should be able to incorporate the cycling but I've been fairly lazy about actually doing it. Fall is the BEST for running! The mornings here are amazing.

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  5. Running is definitely a great reliever of stress. I get frustrated when I can't run, because it's my 'me' time, too. I hope you get back on track and it helps!!

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    1. Thank you, Brandie! Getting back on the horse. Hubs needs to, too, so we'll support each other.

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  6. It's easy to let "me" time fall to the wayside but, truthfully, you can be a better wife, mother, employee, etc when you have that "me" time. Take care of yourself!

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    1. Yes it is. I've been pretty good about it for a while now, but with lots of moving parts in my life it got harder. Being cognizant of it should help. Thank youuu!

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  7. Honestly, I can't even imagine feeling that strongly about any exercise to count it as me time, but way to keep yourself accountable! Impressive indeed.

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    1. I couldn't before, but the mental break is something I haven't found anywhere else. I can just feel the stress melting off when I get off my ass and do it.

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  8. Turkey Trot training time :-) That's my goal as I try to get back on the wagon again too.

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  9. And I have the opposite thing where I was walking through the summer but now it's raining all of the time and I have to figure out how to not just take a winter-long break from exercise. I'm usually not good about that but want to make some progress this winter so I have to do something -- both for my body and for my mind. Good luck getting back into your groove!

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  10. And, here we are at the end of October and still with temps in the high 80s. Our AC is running right now. Ugh. So just saying, I hear ya! I need to get my butt back to the gym and more walking and bike riding. You can do it Andi!

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